Knitting is relaxing - right? Right?!?! RIGHT?!?!?!

A few years ago let's just say I was in a relationship that was on it's way down hill (read: careening out of control at the speed of a Mcqueen movie).  I thought, hey, knitting is supposed to be relaxing, right?  I'll pick up knitting! 

I read some books...and couldn't quite grasp the whole cast-on thing.  Usually I can look at diagrams and figure stuff out, but it wasn't happening.  So, the YouTube lightbult went off and I looked online.  With a few demonstrations, I got the cast-on thing going.  Ok, then the next row...and another....this isn't very relaxing.  My hands are super tense, this has to be too tight - I can barely get the needle back in...something is wrong.  Ok, 4 rows into it, I rip it all back down and start again because we all know if you do something again the exact same way you'll get a different result.

My hands felt arthritic and cramped, I was NOT relaxed and I gave up like any reasonable psycho would.

But I left it all on the needle.  It's still there in the yarn basket - a testament to my short temper.